I know how you feel Mahalia, I have gone back and forth about going natural. I pretty much enjoy the short twa look, but pretty much got restless after that. So now, no one is convinced that I will stick to it, thats because where I am originally from in Jamaica we take hair dressers for granted. I moved to Germany in May, and finding a good hair dresser to perm hair was impossible, but I am so happy that it has forced me to wake up and love the real me !!!!